Question.

I question myself a lot. Am I doing the right thing, did I say the right thing? Am I trying hard enough, praying long enough? Was there something I should have, could have done or done better? Or just what will I fix for dinner? Does this match? Why did I eat that? Right now I am questioning why I am starting a blog. I read blogs. Mostly I read blogs by young women. Smart, funny, inspirational, beautiful young women. So what has possessed me to blog. Not sure. Is this a way to connect, or just feel connected. Talk things out with myself. A kind of self therapy. Maybe. Do I have something to say? Always. Do I have something to contribute? Doubtful. A kind of public diary. That sounds odd. I think maybe it is a way of reaching for something. Human contact, belonging and understanding. Trying to know we are not in this alone. Maybe in end, it will be like shouting into a cave and the contact I get is the echo of my own voice coming back to me. Helloooooooo.